4 A Betta Life

Christmas can be a very happy time, for children, parents, whole family groups and friends. Sharing good times, swapping presents and just enjoying the time of giving! But it can also be a very lonely time for some people and this can lead to people feeling down, depressed and even suicidal. I know because I [...]

I have been in the depths of depression in the past and, while feeling great at the moment,  am still on anti-depressant medication. Many people suffer from depression, anxiety and black moods and only now is depression losing its stigma, to a small extent, allowing more and more people suffering from depression and anxiety, to seek [...]

  It’s a well-know fact that people who are depressed find it hard to get motivated to do stuff – things they would normally do without any effort, become almost impossible to accomplish, because of their state of mind. Depressed people feel that their “Get up and Go” has ” Got up and Gone”. And [...]

I saw my councellor yesterday and she remarked how happy I sounded, how well I looked and how much my life seemed to have improved over the past 12 months. For those of you who don’t know, read my previous posts on Deceipt, Depression and Deliverance. As we spoke about my current life situation, she [...]

I have been struggling, these last few weeks, to motivate myself to do the things I know need to be done. It is sometimes so much easier to roll over and grab another 10 minutes in bed, then another 10 minutes, until suddenly it is lunchtime. I have absolutely no problem getting up early, if [...]

The Power of Children to Heal One of the greatest outcomes of parenting, indeed the greatest reward for any parent, must be to see your child blossom, grow, mature, reach adulthood and take their first steps of independence as they begin their own lives. And if you have prevailed in their upbringing with a positive set of [...]

I have decided to stay in New Zealand an extra 10 days, as I am finding the time here quite therapeutic and healing. Some of the issues that were front of mind in Sydney, have been pushed back by the sheer pleasure and peace of a more gentle life. I am staying with my daughter, I have [...]

There have been two positive developments in the last few days, developments that will help me move in the direction of Deliverance and away from Depression. I’ll write briefly about the one, but the other will form the basis of a good number of blog posts going forward. I am spending a few weeks in [...]

Today was a bit of a breakthrough for me, as my situation slowly improves as far as both my physical and emotional wellbeing is concerned. I visited my psychiatrist today and this was to be the meeting where he decided if we needed to increase my medication, based on how he had perceived me at our previous meeting [...]

Today I saw 3 medical people and my councellor…. so am I trying to fix up my physical and mental health, or what? Firstly, I have, as mentioned before, been cleaning up my outer self, by having 3 melanomas removed. Well, I have since been corrected and informed that they are actually not melanomas but a non-melanoma [...]

Last week I sent an email to my ex-wife, setting out my current situation, so that she could better understand any conversations that might crop up about me between her and my daughters. I have up till now, kept my daughters in the picture to a greater degree. This may be useful to add detail to [...]

One of life’s challenges is to know our purpose in life, our reason for being on this earth. We all know that is a conundrum that has challenged many brilliant minds in the past and will do so in future. “What is the meaning of Life – why are we here?” It is easy to say ” [...]

I wasn’t going to add to my diary today, as I thought I would give it a few days break, but something out of left field just happened which is worth noting. Well, firstly, I woke up early and was out of bed by 8 this morning, which for me was a great start to my day. [...]

Well, I didn’t make much progress with my ‘action plan’ this weekend, sadly. I tried this morning to get up early – my alarm went off at 7:30, but then I rolled over for a bit – and that bit became an hour, two hours….. till I finally looked at my clock – 1:45 pm. [...]

This morning I agreed with my psychiatrist that I would do more, and work on the plan we developed to take me forward. To help me I looked for some ideas today and found these four points which I want to share here. I hope they will help me focus and help you too.  I [...]

I wasn’t sure if I should talk about my current depressed state online here, and go so public with what is still to some degree, a taboo subject, certainly in Australia. Although, more and more now, we are reading about high profile people, sportsmen, politicians, businessmen and entertainers who are ‘coming out’ as suffering depression. But [...]

Whilst I try to write articles on my blog that have an uplifting impact on my readers and hopefully offer some ideas on how to improve one’s life situation, I am personally not in very good space at the moment. So while this series of posts will be quite different to what I normally post [...]